I did not make it to the Black/White Masquerade party.
I did attend my tea. I was relatively sedentary. My friend did help me walk around the room. With her help, I successfully bid on a Luau basket. I guess there’s a party in my future.
The problem started because the car was parked much further than usual. It took me about 15 minutes, easily, well not so easily, to get to the car. I arrived home later than planned. I was totally knackered but put my feet up. I began to modify my plans – touch up makeup instead of redo; leave hair as is and not swap to hair ornament, leave Victorian knee highs on. I did contemplate staying with the floral sneakers but really wouldn’t work with black chiffon skirt.
Next, I had a problem pulling the skirt on. As much as I dislike it, it has an elastic waist. Comic but not, seeing Tom trying to pull it on for me. Then I tried to stand up and gracefully collapsed into the chair. Then I did it again. It was scary. I realized that the mask was still upstairs; the cards weren’t signed. It was overwhelming. I just couldn’t do it. I hurt. I was weak. I would not be able to get there until much later.
I have always believed in a cost benefit analysis. If I had to go to work in seriously bad weather or snow, I always did this. Sometimes, I went; sometimes I didn’t. Well, CBA on Saturday, said it wouldn’t work. Being so collapsed, I would not be safe driving. I would barely have been able to walk. I was devastated but cancelled at the last minute. This is so not me. It was always a joke when I was much younger that I was always up for a party. For awhile, my nickname was Flash because I was always ready in a flash. Nor did I let sickness deter me. I recall a dinner dance cruise around Manhattan in the 80’s with a 102 fever body suit with wrap skirt, shawl and glitter. Everything glittered for me that evening.
I was bitterly disappointed this past Saturday. Firstly, if I had been able to go I would have needed the walker. Secondly, that I wasn’t strong enough at all to go. So, as per my usual Joe Palooka doll self (you know the children’s punching bag toys that you hit and they bounce right back), I decided that iit’s time yet again to amp things up. I have started the MS workout program. If I stick to it, I should get results. I am going to push more on a daily basis for more steps. I will get outdoors this summer. I refuse to bow to defeat. My plan and goal is for this to be the last event I lose to this condition