Back for MAY :
How do I feel today – Nice day. Attended a tea. I actually did a table. I was all tizzed about it but think it went well. However, mixed feelings. This is my fourth one. I walked in first time four years ago in a dress, today with a cane and pants. But I am walking better than I have due to the drug.
What did you do for yourself today?
See above. I went to a tea, very girly. My husband was wonderful and helped set up and breakdown. There’s a jewelry boutique so I got to shop! And then went to Odd Job afterwards for this and that. I didn’t work. It’s a real break.
What did I eat today and how did it make me feel – BAD. It was tea! I did do a smoothy before I went but scones, salmon tea sandwiches, chocolate. Then Chinese food. I have been seriously sliding and need to recommit to proper eating. I need to max the opportunity the Ampyra has given me.
Did I exercise? What did I do? How did it feel – Still not going to the gym or Zumba. But I am walking more. I will get to gym. This was the least I have walked all week.
For whom or what are you grateful? What matters most in life? Grateful for friends and the possibilities of new ones. Grateful for the people I am meeting through the blog. Ampyra. New possibilities.
Do I have a higher purpose or driving force in my life? Make a mission statement – Higher purpose still not defined. Beginning to dream again. Uh, maybe some sort of sharing
How long have I been treated with conventional medicine Ampyra, two weeks. And it is working. I was able to walk longer and stronger.
The first time I had a symptom – June 2004 walking on the beach boardwalk
What symptoms are most troublesome – being off balance and not walking well, wearing ugly shoes and consequently ugly clothes
Do I blame myself for things – Yes, I am still blaming myself for not being aggressive against this. Still! And I think always. It’s funny how we don’t take things seriously
How is stress level? It’s high. Trying to tone it down.
What can I do tomorrow to make it better than today? Start over. It’s a new month. Have a different day. And yes, I am thinking about things other than disease and death. I am thinking about art and new jobs and possibilities, flowers and spring.
Until next month.