I recently took one of those Facebook quizzes and both my first and middle names mean warrior princess
How do I feel today – Mixed. Recently, there has been a reorganization at work and my medical excuse is not being honored. So, on the positive side I slept till nearly 7 a.m. this morning. And I am not allowed to work from home at all. Upside, I am getting back in touch with me and what makes me tick and joyous. Other side: I am limited. I am planning a tea with friends next weekend and am dependent on my husband to get things. I have a wonderful tea set. It’s upstairs boxed because he doesn’t like it. It’s too far in the eaves for me to pull it out so I won’t be able to use it. This frustrates and hurts me. He is angry and moody today which also brings me down. I realize this must be hard for him but it is harder for me. I fell yesterday morning and that is upsetting him. I am working on something, late as usual, that is pictures of both of us. I was short some of me as a child and went upstairs to get a few. It hurts. I have no children. My brother and I are estranged. These photos mean nothing to anyone but me.
What did you do for yourself today?
Well, I am taking stepson to lunch. I am going back upstairs to straighten up. I am planning my tea. Maybe, just maybe I’ll get to read
What did I eat today and how did it make me feel – I have been moving more and more to eating in a way that will help me.
Did I exercise? What did I do? How did it feel – Replaced Fitbit with Jawbone and trying to calibrate it. Gym is a possibility. I am looking for a new job so want to be/appear stronger.
For whom or what are you grateful? What matters most in life?
I have been thinking a lot this month about the stepkids. I am so blessed. And I get along with their girlfriends/fiancee. I asked fiancee to lunch and she thought I was mad at her but accepted anyway. How cool is that? It was to give her something for her wedding day. After a certain point I never thought I would have children in my life. I guess I do. It’s hard for me to believe they care for me. It’s a great gift. And one of the reasons I have them is because of my friends. I have friends who are amazing lifelines to me. When I first became involved with the boys they were my guiding lights. I am blessed!
Do I have a higher purpose or driving force in my life? Make a mission statement – I still have problems with this one. I had a minister who once said I had a great capacity for joy. Let’s go with that one for now. I do an elves workshop for nieces every year and I tell them it’s about spreading joy.
How long have I been treated with conventional medicine Ampyra since April. The Ampyra continues to work.
I met a man with a walkaid device and that looks appealing
The first time I had a symptom – June 2004 walking on the beach boardwalk. Fell twice at home recently but it’s due to stress.
What symptoms are most troublesome -still hung up on the ugly shoes! And my hands seem to be weakening. Same as last month. Being dependent or limited is driving me wid.
Do I blame myself for things – Yes, I am still blaming myself for not being aggressive against this. Still! I let go of me and who I am and could be. This month thinking about the self sabotage
How is stress level? Very bad. Work is worse and it’s having a financial impact. Like Scarlett O’Hara, I’ll think about that tomorrow.
What can I do tomorrow to make it better than today? Continue to get back in touch with me and what gives me joy. Organize the clutter
Until next month.