How do I feel today
Mixed. I have been getting good rest. Down side – I am out of work. So, I am not getting paid and there is confrontation in my future. I am angry which is something that doesn’t agree with me. However, it is an improvement of the stress that I have been undergoing since August. I just want definitive closure which I don’t see for the definitive future. It’s Sunday and I read the Times again! I am slowly, slowly decompressing and getting back to me.
What did you do for yourself today?
I did my stepper and tried to recalibrate my tracker. I am reading. I will probably cook something healthy. I will play with my tea business. I calculated everything I have earned for the year so I can sort out my health insurance.
What did I eat today and how did it make me feel – Still thinking about food and making good choices. I did do chocolate but I am doing so much less of it. I am looking forward to cooking something from Two Moms in the raw.
Did I exercise? What did I do? How did it feel – Well, I did the stepper and will do so again. I have been to the gym twice this week. Being out of work, I will start going practically everyday as I know from previous experience, it’s the only way I will stay sane and healthy. It feels good.
For whom or what are you grateful? What matters most in life?
Ah, I am blessed. Someone I knew a long time ago said I was one of the few people at school that was authentic and cool and still am. Kinda validates what I am about. Grateful that I have the wherewith financial and emotional to weather this storm.
I have an opportunity to focus on getting healthy.
Do I have a higher purpose or driving force in my life? Make a mission statement –
Driving force? Well, I am standing on and committed to principle. Hope it matters.
How long have I been treated with conventional medicine I am going to start Biotin this week.Ampyra since April. Baclufen. I am seeing more and more about food. I am thinking about mostly committing through the end of the year. I should be at home and can couple it with exercise
The first time I had a symptom – June 2004 walking on the beach boardwalk. This week I walked 11 blocks slowly during rush hour with a cane. YeaH!
What symptoms are most troublesome -still hung up on the ugly shoes! And my hands seem to be weakening. However, see stress rearing it’s ugly head.
Do I blame myself for things – Of course! Yes, I am still blaming myself for not being aggressive against this. However, getting back to me, slowly, slowly but surely!
How is stress level?
Coming down a bit. Last month, I was returning to uncertainty. This month is uncertain in a different way. I feel calmer all in all. Not getting up around 4 a.m. Is HUGE!
What can I do tomorrow to make it better than today? Exercise, structure and move forward
Until next month.